August 25, 2017
And since it is through God’s kindness, then it is not by their good works. For in that case, God’s grace would not be what it really is–free and undeserved. Romans 11:6 (NLT)
I’ve spent much of my life trying to chase happiness, joy and peace, working for the fix that will satisfy me. In my searches I’ve found temporary happiness and at times felt real joy. The problem is keeping feelings alive in my heart. There is always that little empty space that I needed to fill. And honestly, the searching and working to fill that empty space is exhausting.
I was raised in a Christian family, baptized and confirmed in the Methodist Church, and taught that God is my heavenly Father, and the Lord Jesus Christ his son, came into this world to offer me peace and Grace. So much so, that he was willing to be crucified and die for me.
For all of my life I’ve known this story. It hasn’t been until recently that I understood that story can be a reality in my life. Christ really did come into this world, and he really did give up his life so that I can live with real peace and joy in my life. No amount of work or searching is required on my part. The only thing I need to do is accept the grace he offers. I’m not going say that’s an easy task for me. I struggle with what I want and what God wants for me. When I fail in living the life God would have for me, it’s easy to fall back into the routine of trying to reconcile with God by works and deeds rather than accepting my faults, asking forgiveness, and accepting his grace once again. I’ve found the best thing I can do is keep going. Rather than working for grace, I try to take a moment, take a deep breath and ask God to help me walk as Christ would. I’m learning that it’s not about working to receive grace, but rather it’s about accepting that it is freely given, and surrendering the control I perceived that I have over my life in order to live as Christ did.
I still have a long way to go, but I have friends now who show me by the way they live, that it is possible to have that joy and peace in my life, and all I need do is accept God’s grace.